Date: 02-05-02
Poster: Hannah Frasier
Post # 4
(Live
roleplay with NealeMFrasier, HannahFrasier, DanielWFrasier,
PatrickLFrasier and the Guard and Healer, respectively)
The "meeting" underway in his cabin upon the Fury was
interrupted by the urgent message delivered. Neale knew
that his father was in route to Heathfield. Depending on the weather,
was to arrive this or the next week. So when the messenger knocked
upon his door, Neale knew at once what news he brought. He just
didn't know the extent of it. He had turned to excuse himself from
the woman who had come to "speak" with him, only to find she
had managed to slip away. Something that still had him thinking
back with confusion. From that cabin, there was only one way out,
and he and the messenger were standing just a few feet away, though
Neale's back did face the door. The trek from the ship to the
Thistle seemed to be endless, head bent against the bitter wind, but at
last the warm glow of lantern lights could be seen illuminating even the
walkway outside the windows. His steps were already rushed, long
strides eating the distance with haste. He only stepped up to the
stoop, then shoved the door open. Searching out the common room
first as he closed the door behind him.
Hannah has only just arrived at the Thistle herself. The carriage
ride had seemed endless. Giving the coachman an impatient shove she
hurries in the door of the tavern, as much as she can hurry at any rate
Daniel had been out in his daily explorations, something he had
picked up on since his return. With all that had gone on he was doing
what he knew best...gathering all kinds of information. He had
barely gotten back to his room when he found the message....he had had
this foreboding even this morning while in that Rhydian
tavern...something was amiss. All washed up and changed he was soon down
the steps descending them fast as he finished buttoning up his
shirt. Around the corner and down the corridor before emerging into the
tavern itself...wondering if he was late.
One of the guards had been seated by the hearth, coming immediately to
his feet as one Fraiser descended the stairs, the other entered through
the front entrance. "Where is he?" Neale didn't even bother to
remove his cloak, and only after the question was asked did he
pull his attention from that guard to his brother.
"Daniel." Just his name by way of greeting before he was
looking back to the guard for that requested information.
Nearly stumbling over her own feet, she sees both Neale and Daniel at
the same moment. Cloak? She hadn't even remembered to bring one.
The Guard spoke up. "Upstairs, in his room. He is...not...I'll take
you to him." Nodding at the Frasier trio he starts up the stairs,
expecting them to follow.
Neale spun to find Hannah entering, extending his still leather gloved
hand to her. "Come, Sprite." He wasn't sure how much she had
been told, better to have her close either way.
Frasier greens rested on his brother with a nod....wordlessly as he
searched between the guards, cuff links adjusted as hair curled damply
over the edge of his collar. His face drawn in concern as he
waited... his motions done distractedly.
Hannah's smaller hand in his, Neale did follow, and closely to the heels
of that guard, Hannah lead just a step or two behind him. He knew
Danny would be close as well...it was a given.
Clutching at Neale's hands, the guard's words did not seem to bode well
but she's climbing those stairs as quickly as she can, keeping herself
carefully calm.
He was right on their heels as his hand took Hannah's other elbow to
make sure she was escorted safely especially in her condition. He didn't
know at all yet how bad things were.
Neale's hasty departure from the ship's cabin had allowed no time for
him to make himself presentable. His jaw tensed beneath the day's
layer of beard, the chill of the sea air divided the thick strands of
his hair. The heavy material of cloak hid the casual attire of a
man not expecting to be out...but enjoying the privacy of his own rooms.
Things just did not always go as planned.A nod was offered to the two
men, his father noticed at once in the dim lighting of the room.
"Where's the child?" He motioned for Hannah and Danny to
enter while he inquired after Ellyn.
The guard leads them to the door where the other guard is stationed
before he opens the door to allow them entrance. The room is dark,
save for the dim light of a single lantern. Already it has that smell of
the sick, the dying. In the bed, looking much too small and much
too pale, his cheeks sunken, lies Alisdair. He appears to be sleeping.
He was moving into the room last as he stepped off to the side away from
them slightly as that dark green gaze took on a brooding quality. A
muscle twitched along his jawline as he stood rather rigidly.
A woman rises from a chair in the corner, the healer that's been seeing
to their father for the last several months. "She is with her
nanny, she's well, sleeping I believe." Her voice appropriately
quiet. "Your father is sleeping. It's a stroke, it happened just as
he arrived here." Sad, elderly eyes rest on Alisdair.
As soon as the feminine voice was heard, Neale jerked his attention from
the guards to the woman, entering fully then into the room. He
crossed to his father, standing beside the bed but facing the woman
still, his fingertips came to rest on the elder Frasier's shoulder.
"A stroke?" Greens dipped to the sleeping man, then back to
the woman, his other hand lifting out for Hannah again to come closer if
she needed. Neale would be here for her. "Do we know the
damage done?"
He stared over his father as if he could will him to rise...then tore
his gaze to watch his sister now instead as he inched closer.. within
reach.
Hannah releases Neale's hand to perch upon the edge of the bed,
swallowing hard the lump in her throat. His hand feels so cold...
Her green eyes lift to meet Daniel's and then Neale's, resting anywhere
but on her father's pale face.
He had moved in closer with them as he once more just stared down upon
his father...his emotions in check but that twitch along his jawline had
only intensified.
"It's difficult to say right now, in a day or two we should know
the full extent of it. I think it is likely that he has lost the power
of speech, he was unable to communicate earlier, during the brief period
he was awake."
There was a rush of blood that left him in a daze as he'd pulled himself
from darker corner and warmer body once he'd been found. Now, his face
was masked with an eerie determination to see for himself - if it were
all true. He was given the silent stoic treatment and pointed in the
right direction, which was exactly where he highed himself off too,
looking for the faces familiar of his brothers and sister,
"Sprite.." Barely uttered Frasier green's turned
to the youngest sibling, closest to Patrick's heart. His gaze was
filled with questions and concern yet he could find no voice for them.
They are there, all save Rob, all focused on the words exchanged between
Neale and the old healer. Hannah turns at the sound of Patrick's steps
and her eyes meet his, the horror and grief at what's happened is clear
in them but no tears. She won't let herself cry, not here in front of
their father.
Just that one word pulled his attention from the healer toward the man
entering. He watched as his brother entered, remaining silent for
the time. He dipped his head in greeting to him. "That
is not a certainty though." This was directed to the
older woman, though his attention centered on the returning Frasier
brother.
His own gaze lifted as the near same hued eyes met his brother's and the
slight nod given.
"Nothing is a certainty at this juncture." And that includes
death, though that word is left unspoken.
He knew she wouldn't vent those tears, no matter how great the urge.
Comfort was given in the form of a quick embrace while he looked first
to Neale. "How soon until we know?" His throat felt as
if he'd drank gravel yet it was the question uppermost in his mind.
Not spoken, but understood all the more with that possibility
unmentioned. "Would you like to take a break, Mistress?
We four can sit with him for awhile. Some tea perhaps..."
His offer fell silent so she could answer Patrick, but that which Neale
had spoken was more than a suggestion...it was more a request that they
have some time alone with their father...and themselves.
He withdrew into his own thoughts as the dark of green trailed over his
father's sullen features....death's shadows lingered there and he knew
the outcome save divine intervention via a miracle. Eyes strained and
stung as everything else was just a low hum...heard and stored...he
would later remember.
"A day or two. I do not think.." Pausing. "...I'm
not sure that he will ever recover. After dropping this bombshell she
bows her head at Neale's suggestion and wordlessly departs the room,
knowing the children need time with their father.
..I'm not sure that he will ever recover. The words soured
in his ears and gave him tunnel vision. The world fell away from under
him, shocking his system cold and making the blood in his veins run to
ice.
Neale swallowed, following the woman from the room with his gaze.
Slowly it returned to each of his kin, starting with Daniel so close
still to the door, then working over Patrick, Hannah...and at last
dropping to the pale visage of his father. So full of life the
last he had seen him, boasting of the fine peregrine he had purchased.
A shake of his head cleared that thought away, they were hear now, the
five of them...that...was the past.
The anger built as he knew they couldn't even talk to him... so much
so.. he swung around fisting his hand into the wall. He didn't feel the
pain as he stalked over to the nearby window and stared out
instead of looking upon his father's face and witnessing death taking
him from them. The pain...in his hand kept his senses alert, least
letting him know he was still here.
Her breath hitches with those words and again she looks from one
brotherly face to another, as though they might be able to change those
words... "He won't, he can't, he's too strong." The
angry whispers break the silence. This can't be happening, it can't be
the same man, so full of pride and energy not long ago...then her head
turns at the sound of Daniel's fist striking the wall and a cry leaves
her throat.
Neale frowned when Daniel's pain slipped into anger, that anger into
action, and he drew in a deep breath, releasing it very slowly in order
to rein in his own rampaging concerns. "He is still with us
for now."
He leaned back, as if willing time to screech to a halt and yet he knew
it would do him little good. Life simply didn't listen to mere mortals
like him. Daniel look his frustration out on the wall and yet Patrick
could only answer his own wavering strength by hanging his head once
he'd heard those strangled words uttered by both sister and brother.
"But we know not for how long.. already he slips away."
Yes...he was angry...so very angry because there was nothing they could
do but stand there and watch. He was seething and at least what he did
released some of it...harming none but himself if it did. His breathing
took on that patter of slow intakes and releases until he got control of
his anger again.
"Aye and he will stay with us." She does not sound as certain
of that as she would like to. Her chin quivers as she brings Alisdair's
cold hand to rest upon her stomach, as though the life felt within her
might instill new life within her father.
It was good he was staring out the window for had he seen the Sprite's
actions it might of broken him down.
If only he could encourage them all, Neale felt so useless to bolster
the hope of his siblings. He, himself, felt drained. His
fingers curled into his palm, fisting at his side with the inability to
strike out like Daniel.
He so wanted to believe Hannah, and yet death had clearly cast itself
onto his fathers features, draining it of color and life. Patrick
was unable to look at the pale visage of their father and turned away.
His brows twitched into a deeper frown, and he pulled his gaze from
Hannah's actions to stare at the door where the healer had departed.
"There is no turning back, only looking ahead." Still he
made no eye contact with either of his brothers or his sister.
"From this point, we shall take it one hour at a time, day at a
time...until he is either back with us, or rejoining our mother and
Leora." His voice caught, cracked...but he cleared the emotion away
as, only then, did he look to the others in the room with him.
"Oh, da." Whispering softly this time, her breath hitches
again, fighting to keep tears at bay and Neale's words only make it that
much harder.
He swallowed hard as a hand ran over his face....he heard Neale's words
but he didn't look back over there yet...no...not yet he couldn't.
"Whatever must be done." He felt his throat close over
the words, strangling them from his lips as he found the courage to turn
and look Neale directly in the eye, shattered green's clear save for the
film of tears there. "For however long it must be done."
Perhaps the old man has heard his eldest and youngest sons for at that
very moment his eyes open. They are wild and unfocused. His hand draws
from Hannah's belly to slap helplessly upon the bed.
For the time their gazes locked, Neale attempted to bridge the gap
between them. It was only their father's sudden actions which
snatched his silent communication away. "Daniel...call for
the healer!" Neale reached out, capturing that floundering
hand between the both of his and holding tight. "Father..."
His voice is stern...belying his fear with the man's response to waking.
He was around and rushing towards the door, reached and near torn off
its hinges as he called for the healer in a good yell. Then just as fast
he was around and to his father's side with the rest of them...the color
heightened in his cheeks.
"Da! Her voice cracks with her surprised cry, grabbing for
that hand again, squeezing it to let him know that she's there. "Da,
we're here."
He felt planted into place, as if he'd taken root right there in that
half bent position.
Neale slid his hold away, allowing Hannah's contact to sooth their
father. A step back had his spine to the wall.
It seems an eternity before the man's eyes come to rest on any one
thing. They shift from one face to another. Fearful and lacking in any
recognition.
"He doesn't seem to know us." How hard was it to say those
words, while looking over his father's pale features. Hands made
themselves into fists as he straightened, shaking his head.
His breath rattles in his lungs, shallow and difficult. It is obvious
the man is suddenly not getting enough air. Defiant to the last, his sea
green eyes become clearer, though, and come to rest on his children one
at a time, from youngest to oldest, and on Neale they remain. His brow
knits, his expression twisted as one side of his face seems to
droop but also very earnest.
In his thirty-one years, Neale had faced many challenges, tests that
created the man that stood in this room. But as his gaze met that
of his father's, the man who used the wall for support nearly lost this
battle. Nearly...but that chin lifted and he pushed up from his
lean. "Ever at your side, Father." And so it had
been since he was a youth; Alisdair showing him how to wrap the plaid,
how to ride, how to swing his blade. Ever, the youth had been at
his Father's side...and so it was even this night.
Weakly he tugs at the hand held so tightly by Hannah. When she's
released it, it flops uselessly at his side for a moment and then with
another of those rasping breaths, the elderly Frasier uses what strength
and control he has to lift his arm and fling it in Neale's direction. He
looks like a ragdoll, helpless but determined. His mouth opens and
closes several times, attempting to speak.
It was a struggle between his father's mind and his father's failing
body. Emotions were held only in check by will power as he
swallowed that lump in his throat.
A fisted
hand tucked behind his back and he bent toward his father, closer ...
searching his eyes for the words that his voice may not be able to
utter.
Enters the room as calmly and quietly as she left. A wise and talented
woman, she can see what is happening, the attempt at communication. It
is obvious to her upon listening to his breathing that nothing can be
done for him. Remaining near the head of the bed but out of the
way, she gives the four siblings a slight shake of her head,
communicating silently that the man does not have much time left.
He was on edge as he stood off to Neale's right...he was always the one
in his brother's shadow...to help him as needed. Hands fisted and
released repeatedly as he waited.
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